All Over the Place

My gingerbread man from Pret. My little treat. He has a large piece of his head missing, and it feels similar to the way I feel at the moment!

My thoughts and feelings are all over the shop. 

I kept very busy today, although it stayed grey and cloudy all day which rather addd to the gloom. Parents gone, I grabbed my bits and some groceries and parked them at my Mum's.

The only bright spot was gym this evening. Boy, that really has been my saviour these past 6 months. I always feel much better when I come out, and for two whole hours I am cheerfully distracted from my troubles, and that is a good thing. I realised I hadn't smiled all day until I got there. Sharing my trauma of NYE amused my friends too :-) Three of us have decided to try a trio competition, so for the first time tonight we practiced some balances. The little stick people in the diagrams make it look easy!  We had such fun trying out the moves, but it was a lot harder than it looked! I will have to get stronger so that I'm not the weakest link in the chain...!

I don't want to go to work tomorrow. Last year I went back with a spring in my step, on cloud nine, and thoroughly positive about life. But not now. 

Oh please, let me turn back the clock.