Do not be anxious

This evening is my last night at home before I return to Guildford and reatart the madness that is life as an acting student at GSA. I have had a brilliant holiday away from my work but now it is time to return.

I'm anxious. This anxiety has been bubbling up all afternoon and has become very apparent this evening. I love having family who I can talk this through with and that is part of the blessing of being a Christian.

Mum, before I went to bed told me to read her quiet time for today, and no surprises it was totally relevant. Tonight I have been reminded, in my anxious knitting self, that God is good. Philippians 4 verse 6, 'Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, with prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your requests to God. And the Peace of God which transcend all understanding will guard your heart and your mind in Christ Jesus'.

Why am I anxious? Because I lack belief that I can do the things which are going to be put before me? Because I feel unprepared for returning? I could have done more work this holiday? I could have learned some more songs? I could have done some more background reading?

All these things may be true in part, but I am anxious because I do not believe the promise of God, that he will never leave me or forsake me, and that I think that I must do this difficult thing alone. This is simply not true.

Song lyric of the day,

'My troubled soul, why so weighed down, you were not made to bear this heavy load, cast all your burdens upon the Lord, Jesus cares, He cares for you.' Robert Critchley