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I’ve got good at hiding how I’m feeling.  Just because I’m smiling, still functioning to a degree and yes every now and again laughing and joking, doesn’t mean that inside I’m hurting like hell.  Every day there is emptiness in my heart, which keeps bringing me down, I don’t want to be like this but I can’t see a way out.
 
Today I told one of me best mates, he said “sorry mate I didn’t realise things were that bad.”  See how easy it is?
 

I also got told today “the best thing you can do is forget.”  HA!  Forget?!!  How can I forget when I have a great memory?  Every word, every little gesture.  Happy memories now torture me.

Oh BTW I'm not posting to Twitter at the moment, so you Blippers are the only ones seeing what is happening to me.