Icy

Snow was forecast. We got it , sort of. This was it really. Snow that had settled then froze into ice.

Andre started work late, working from home until it was alright to bike to work.

Today was crazy. the boys were so full on. 

Just non stop talking, asking for things, following them around picking up stuff. Madness. I went from one thing to another and at times trying to do 3 things at once because they could not wait.

None of them interested in activities. 

So i took care of the pets today, quiet, easy going little fluffy huggable creatures.

I cut their claws, cleaned out their hutch and cut wookiees fur that was insanely long.

Days like this are hard, where the boys are just hard. They don't mean it

I kept trying to think about how it was for them and be kind and patient but when Andre got home i was so exhausted and just kind of had enough of everything that i went outside and stood in the rain to breathe

. I felt suffocated. I realized i haven't been out of the house in days and neither have they. Its been so cold we haven't attempted an outing yet so we've all been inside in each others space and i hadnt had any chance to sit and have a cup of tea, have a break, a moments silence

I regathered myself and went to help Andre feed them and get them into bed.

The boys were solemn, i think they knew they had perhaps pushed it a bit far with me, Andre had explained that i was tired and sad.

Think we'll have a better day tomorrow now we've all sort of had a reset.

Missing summer holidays where they can just go outside and play.Also having racks of washing  and the pets hutches inside makes the house feel more crampt than it is.