Night Heron

I caught the Heron in my car lights, so quickly jumped out and got a rubbish but the only shot before he flew off.

A night at counselling which ended horribly. She talked about me coming for so long and it has turned into 'just what I do on a Tuesday night'. I think she is trying to get rid of me.
It has made me feel so upset. I really need her and am now thinking if she doesn't want to help me, then what is the point. I am now heading into a downward spiral, I have cried, self harmed and drank a bottle of wine. Now I don't know what to do.