Dark blue

I guess that I had no understanding, back before this all started, what real fatigue felt like.  All consuming.  So much so that I couldn't even muster the energy to go upstairs for a lie down this afternoon.  It's not like being tired.  Being tired can be resolved with sleep.  Sleep doesn't resolve this.  In fact, the sweet irony is that despite my fatigue, I often don't sleep very well at all.  

It's like wearing a suit of concrete and trying to walk through neck deep sludge.  Impossible, futile and soul destroying.

i don't even have the energy to be angry currently. Well, I am angry at myself for allowing myself to give in to this.