How I Feel Today

Today's theme: How you feel today.

This is actually how I've been feeling for a wee while now and had the idea of doing a photo like this today (my theme is meant to be lunch) and so decided to change today's theme to this (it is on my list, just further down and hopefully I can do it again and have a different feeling)

I'm married with 2 kids and I graduated from university last July. I still have no job. But in truth I don't know *what* I want to do.

I'm due to have jaw surgery but have no date as yet (been in braces for 4years and 2 months now) so it's difficult to plan...I'd have done some postgrad study otherwise

I suffer from depression on and off...off while I'm medicated...on when I'm not. I'm currently 7 months unmedicated and sometimes struggling. I would've stayed on the meds if it wasn't for the fact that they make me fat.

I don't like me and think that other people don't like me either...I seem to be one of these people who don't see/hear/speak to folk unless I do the initiating...I've not had any social contact with friends in about 4 months...I like people, I just don't think they like me much....not that I have many friends as it is...one...

So I feel kinda stuck, stuck in a corner with this huge gap to the right...this represents lonely....and can't see where to go

so I'll sit against the corner cause at least my back is leaning on something solid.