Three's a Crowd

A walk round the harbour tonight and got sucked into watching these seagulls flying and landing on the old pier.

I feel like I am screwing things up unintentionally and it's affecting me. I was half an hour late for work after sleeping in this morning. I am sleeping at strange times; fell asleep on the floor last night for a couple of hours, I cant be bothered cooking, I am randomly taking my meds.
 I am holding things in my head that I should be letting go. I have time off in July to go and see a friend and haven't yet booked flights. I keep saying I'll do it tomorrow .

I don't know why?