Somewhere.......

So, I'm finding things a bit tough at the moment...and am feeling a bit down.....things are changing and I'm feeling a bit lost and disillusioned with everything and everyone!!!!....
Today I needed some time out, I didn't particularly know where I was going, but I just needed to get away...
I drove very much on autopilot, and ended up somewhere I didn't intend on, but yet, glad I did....
I'm at the crossroads I have been avoiding to reach for probably too long, but now I'm here.
I think in reality I know which direction I must go, the direction I need to go, but why, if I am so certain I know......does it hurt so much??????

I'm hurting so much, and now I am hurting do much more, as my dear dear friend who I've just texted is hurting too, and for both of us.....there's nothing I can do.....
I wish I could make things right, I wish I could say things would be okay, I wish I knew the answers, I wish I knew my heart wasn't going to get broken....again.....
But I don't.......and it probably will....


Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?