Maybe

I'm so tired. I'll write it all up properly.

Something I saw made me feel sad all over again. I'm surprised and yet I'm not surprised. It's month 10. In lots of ways I'm better, and then something will make me feel un-better again. 

Thinking a lot about where my life is going. I'm wondering if a huge change is what I need. Why is my own life never enough for me? Why am I always envious of other people's? I feel it's not a very healthy way to live. Maybe I want to escape. Maybe I don't, or can't. The reason I haven't made any is because I never really know what I want. Maybe I should just go for it. Take a risk. 

Life is not to be lived in baby steps, and yet I am. I don't want to go on like this. Same job being at the top of the list. 

Life certainly does not always work out like you planned. I know that firsthand. 

In the meantime, should anyone else wish to put things in perspective, take a look at this. It helps me sometimes. http://ejtandemonium.com/story/