A Dark Day

This morning went out for breakfast to Stockbridge then came home, read a bit of my book, had another sleep. Feeling anxious and tearful and self harmed. .

This afternoon along to Mum's then to the hospital to see Grandma. She is looking great, just waiting for a bed in a nursing home.

Tonight Mum and I  had an argument about our relationship. Was awful, both of us in the car, me driving and trying to see through the tears. I dropped her off with no conclusion to it, then drove a bit , a quick blip, then home.
Continuing with the tears, have punched a mirror, self harmed and now am exhausted, can't stop crying and struggling to breath but I know sleep will not come.