.......in knots............

This is how my stomach has felt since yesterday lunchtime.

Couldn't bring myself to post anything last night.

Hospital appointment...........with the Main Man himself........blood tests done............five phials in total............a discussion...........eye test needs to be done at a different hospital...........he also wants me to have a sleep apnoea test...........and three days of steroid injections/infusions........he's referred me to the specialist MS nurse...............and then came the bomb shell.

I asked about available treatment............and he told me that if I have the type of MS he thinks I have............which the blood tests will show....then there is no treatment available at present. Talk about taking the ground from under my feet.

2015 was a year of death and gloom and a ruined retirement.
2016 has had two high spots........the S & H's wedding and the Daughter buying her own house and becoming an independent young lady.......the rest of it has been illness and pain.

I'm tired.............tired of being brave...........tired of being an inspiration.......tired of trying to be positive............the thought of 2017 fills me with dread.

Das vidanya moy padruga,