Night

It's the end of the night which is always the hardest.I'm unable to get my medication tonight. With that being said, I am still on a diet of beer and klonopin until I am able to do so. I am relaxed, but can't sleep despite knowing I have to. Because of this, I'm in a haze, A lot of good things have happened though, I have enjoyed the presence of the friends that have been here and the presence of my boyfriend being here.I''m not medicated right now (again) But I am working on being able to change that. I've made a to do list to help me keep track of everything I must do in life. 
I'm scared to go to sleep tonight though. This will be a long process.