My mum left me today. It was sad. I am all alone in a new city, I am living alone, working it all out in mind and moderation. This morning as I woke up I had the sinking and swirling realisation of what has happened. I'm not in an easy life anymore, I'm not being paid for or cooked for anymore. I didn't realise what a big deal this is. Everything I have ever had and known has changed. I'm feeling the right amount of fear and anxiety now, I think. But I hope things will get better. Mr. Greene arrives in Bristol in a week, and who knows what will happen to us. I hope it will be an amazing thing, I really do.