The grass is always greener

The suns gone and so has my good mood ... feeling a bit blue today but oh well I'll just keep pushing on. The air feels muggy and stuffy, a thunderstorm is promised...
Had an appointment at the GP this morning and then a shift at work this afternoon, my first time working with Molly who is lovely and cheery. On the way home I smiled at a stranger and they smiled back, which was somehow very lovely. It's strange because even though nothing bad has happened today to upset me I just can't lift myself out of this foggy depression. I haven't let it beat me though, with thanks to my current book "the happiness project" I've managed to push on and do what feels wrong and unfamiliar but is actually the right thing for my future. Humans quite often give in to the lure of the familiar even if it's not what's best, but even though I feel, quite frankly, like shit, I won't give in and I will keep fighting. After all, I am a survivor...