Still Hanging On

Dear Diary,

I must confess that I have been very uninspired lately.  I am struggling to make sense of things and struggling with wanting to feel well again and not.  A friend came to collect my trash and I started to throw out the lovely bouquet I got while I was in the hospital.  I noticed that two of the roses were still beautiful and I pull them out and put them in a vase.

In my experience, full blown roses do not last very long but here it is ten days later and they are still so pretty.  It was so nice to see, a small treat for me.  The yellow flower was given to me a couple of days ago.  Years ago I read a Chinese proverb that said, "If you have two pennies, spend one on bread and one on flowers.  Bread will give you life and flowers a reason for living."  Very wise people, the Chinese.

Having the staples out is a small blessing but I am afraid that this will be a long road to complete recovery.  I will rest up today and then tomorrow I will take the car out of a short drive.  I have to try and get back to some semblance of normalcy even if I will be restricted on what I can do for the near future.  Matt is coming on Tuesday to get the Christmas tree down and set up with the lights.  That may cheer me up a bit.