fear

the beat of your heart when you wake up from the "fall" in your dream,
or read the words on your phone, vibrating
"we need to talk"
the sick feeling in your stomach as you enter a room for the first time,
and know that you'll have to meet new people and speak to them and god knows what else is going to happen.
and how you try to get your heart rate down, desperately, when you look down in the water and can't see the bottom.