G and T

I'm not sure where this gin came from, just that it's original owner doesn't like it very much, so one man's loss is another man's gain so to speak ;-) 

It was beautifully sunny today, and 23 degrees. I had plans to go out this evening but I've traded them for an afternoon on Southbank tomorrow instead ;-) I was so busy last weekend, but it was the kind of good busy, that was more of the 'old' days. I miss them. I haven't been so fulfilled in a while, so it was nice to feel it again.

This week has been rubbish. A leaving is still playing on my mind, I just have to block it out. It sounds silly, but it does feel akin to being abandoned, or up shit creek without a paddle. I felt more anxious as the week wore on. Partly due to that, and partly due to work stuff. I had another observation on Thursday (this time with an additional member of staff chosen by me, as I can't stand the other one and wanted a fair trial etc) and when I got to work my pulse was 90. By the time they came in it was 110. But I can do a great lesson with my eyes closed, and even though I was nervous, it went great and the new mentor thanked me for allowing her to see how it works, and couldn't really offer any real points for development.

Three more weeks of this, but I won't just sit still when there's injustice. I spoke to a lawyer who specialises in employment law. Unfortunately she was late calling me, so it was lunchtime and I felt rushed, when I really needed to understand what she was saying as this is the only thing she doesn't charge for. So after half an hour on the phone and arriving late back to school, I am still foggy as to my options and cross because once again work got in the way of something important. 

And there's not really anyone I can talk to about it, so I'll have to figure out my next steps on my own. My mentor at school said earlier in the week that she can feel that what's important to me is to feel that I am making a difference, so maybe I might be able to do that in another vocation. 

We shall see. Thank God it's a three day weekend, I need some time to think, and write.