Monday

An unbelievably upsetting day.

After yesterday I was feeling fragile. Then I went to my appointment. An hour of chatting and crying Inwas told she doesn't think she can help me.
She has recommended DBT therapy. Now she writes to my psychiatrist then he refers me to the relevant person to be put on another waiting list.
I cried more. I can't believe this.

Despite saying I think about suicide on a daily business but won't go through with it, no immediate help was offered.

I feel so let down.

In other news the amaryllis was an easy blip as it starts to open.