weary

this photo was taken on wednesday. its friday. i dont know where ive been this week. i havent had the energy to respond to any emails, write in my journal, or blip. i feel exhausted. emotionally and physically.

its probably the transition that is occurring all around me and in my life. everyone is weary. i am fighting for strength.

i have also sobered out i think. as you can tell ive been out of control happy. im still happy, im just not out of control happy anymore. maybe its because it is now a reality that i have to leave this beautiful city of berlin. maybe its because i have no idea about what i am going to do next year. or wait, next week. im not stressed about the future, but it is a fact that i have no idea what it holds. thats got to be at least internally stressing me out. or maybe its that winter is finally getting the better of me and i just cant handle the gray gray gray gray world. maybe its the season of lent. or all of the above.

either way, i am fighting for strength and energy. i am fighting for patience and the ability to serve and love. i am fighting my flesh more or less. its probably an appropriate time.

this photo is just steph and spenc hanging out in spencer's flat. okay, thats not true. it was taken in the DDR museum. we went there. it was alright, but i wasnt all that impressed. i want more history! less toys!!

today was my last day of german class. sad. i liked being in german. i hope i keep it up.

"oh no! there is a syntax error. what the hell is syntax error?" -steph as she uses her graphing calculator.