Love

11 months ago I posted a picture, with the same title, of me and Chloe after I'd been advised to trial a dairy free diet.
Being dairy free made a massive change to Chloe, she literally improved overnight. Her nappies became normal, her hernia resolved and most importantly she settled.
For the last 11 months I have carried on with a dairy free diet and carried on feeding Chloe myself on top of her diet and starting her on the milk ladder. She's been taking bottles of soy milk for a while now on top of me feeding her, and since I've gone back to work these have replaced some of the feeds I would usually have done.
I said last week once I'd run out of rice milk I'd stop feeding her myself, but then I got sad and bought another bottle of it!
I don't want to stop but I think it's more for me now rather than her. If I'm at work she's not bothered atall and even when I'm home shes not asking for it anymore. I've only been feeding her once a day first thing in the morning, but I feel so sad and guilty stopping.
Shes not fed from me for 24 hours now. Chloe is absolutely fine, but I'm feeling very upset this evening so we had massive snuggles before bed!

(On a selfish note I am quite looking forward to being able to eat some cheese and chocolate though!!)