and I feel fine

I always loved that song

My toy guitar plays three songs and this is one of them

Insane, authoritarian, dangerous things are happening in Portland.
One of our civil rights heroes died yesterday. 
The White House is trying to block money for testing. 
We might be on the way to a vaccine and half of my country might not take it. 

Remember when I went stir crazy and stood on my table on my deck and played that toy guitar and then fell through said table BUT did not get hurt and did not go to the hospital during the beginning of the pandemic? 

I assumed I'd get a new table after the pandemic because half of the table was fine. 

Then I decided, for one of my haircuts, to cut it on the deck instead of the back yard and the chair collapsed underneath me. I realized a second chair was also wobbly. 

Then it became increasingly clear that "after the pandemic" was going to be a while. From the safety and comfort of my home I shopped and found new deck furniture, on sale. When? I don't know. Time is meaningless now. Long, long, long ago. 

It arrived yesterday. Poor delivery man needed a signature. I went out with a mask and gloves and my own pen and had him put the paper down and go away. No you are not delivering it in my house. No you are not delivering it in my garage. Yes, just leave it right here in the driveway and we will all run away now. 

Today we began our heat wave. I got up early (!!) and walked Prince Samuel and then moved the new table up the concrete stairs, through the house, and onto the deck. I only tripped twice. Tomorrow the bruise will be exciting and dramatic. I only scraped a small part of it on the concrete. I put it all together. I moved all the new chairs to the deck. I disassembled the broken table and moved it out of the house. I moved the wobbly chair off the deck and out of the house. I am mighty. 

I cut my own hair, yet again, on the deck, and I did not cry and I no longer need cookies. I am mighty.* 

I got a compliment from mambo that cheered up my entire afternoon.  

Two alternate realities ago a friend helped me to get a new job at a very rough time. We love her so much. Thanks to blip I discovered an owl in a local park. My friend's husband had always wanted to see an owl. The pandemic had come so I made a little picture map so her family could drive to the park and find the owl and he completed a life goal. This is a pop-up card I'm sending them. It is the small things, like compliments and owls and pop-up cards. Thank you. 


*Doing something even though it makes you cry is also mighty.