blessed land

waco.

i had mixed feelings about returning here. obviously i was excited to see everyone and to enjoy the sunshine and hang out in this amazing town. but i was also really nervous. i left this place in shambles last august. i was broken and my pain infected everything around me. my relationships, friends, decisions, etc. i had to leave to heal. so i left and, consequently, was able to heal. 8 months later i returned and i was terrified i would slip into my old self.

but i didnt. i am free of that person. i have been redeemed. i hope i was able to redeem some of the relationships i let turn sour. i think i did.

my process of healing has been a lesson in redemption. i have philosophically believed in the concept of redemption for a long time. i have been able to say that in theory, all things can be redeemed. it is a beautiful, beautiful thing to now see the worst year of my life redeemed. all of my mistakes, poor decisions, destructive thoughts, and hurtful words have been redeemed. and now i am free to be a new creation.

i am leaving waco today. i am sad to have to go. i dont really want to leave, but i have another season to enter into. i am very, very thankful that i was able to spend almost 2 weeks here. it has enabled me to see how life moved on and forward while i was gone. i now feel a part of it. i will miss this place and these people.