monsters

this evening was mixed. i enjoyed excellent company. my little brother and a dear friend who i hadn't seen in 2 years came in from the city to see a show. we saw "monsters", vince's brother's band. it was a good evening. kristina continues to be constant source of gratitude and love. i love her dearly and it has been a delight to see her grow over 4 years.

i feel weary and exhausted from a decision i have to make. i just have to do it. i just dont want to. i am trying to love.