Is it just me?

It’s been one of those days where I wonder what is the point of me... I had tense conversations with three different colleagues... I’m the common thread so it must be me getting things wrong. Mainly I am tired. I have one team member who has so royally fluffed up a major project I don’t know where to start. He just simply will not listen - thankfully a colleague has seen us work together and had the same diagnosis so I know I’m not going mad, but I keep looking back and wondering what I should have done differently 6, 8 months ago to stop him continually growing this project until it became an unmanageable monster. And he leaves in 7 days leaving the monster on my already very full ‘to do’ list.

Another team member left last week. I went out of my way to support her ambitions and find opportunities for her but when she did her HR debrief she only complained about salary (no one got a pay rise this year) and long hours (mainly caused by her doing things that weren’t her job but she wanted to do for career development). It’s nice that she sent me a long direct message telling me I’ve been a fantastic boss and really supported and enabled her, but I do wish she’d just mentioned a bit of that in the HR debrief too.

So, after working 8am to 9pm without a break I am off to bed and hoping tomorrow will be a brighter day.