Wednesday

My world has considerably shrunk the last few weeks , I either go to the park or the harbour. I am scared to go any further. It's not in any way helping me feel connected. I'm in my head all the time. 
I either feel spaced out, wondering what is real or not real or really emotional. 

The one person I need to work all this out with I can't access; my therapist.

More weeding at the park this morning, again solo :( 
Sat at the harbour this afternoon , thought I'd been there half an hour , turns out it was more than two and again, can't remember.