Eunique

By eunique

>.<

nothing I do seems right.
my life seems like a mess.. shit.
there's so much things I ought to do before I fly

but now
I can't even help AiLing with the video.
I can't even draw a timeline for ExCo & FOCComm like I hoped to
I can't even visit all my aunts
I can't even have a meal with Liying before I fly
I can't even prepare something for a friend which I'd planned to do
I can't even put my dad at ease; perhaps I may have added to his worries
I can't even put a smile on my bro's face on his birthday
I can't even handle the triggered anxiety, the mixed emotions
I can't even stop it from flowing..
I can't even feel at bloody peace with myself

Is this what happens when one unravels?
When nothing seems to be within one's control?
What should I do? Hold on and ride through the storm hoping for the best?

utter nonsense rantings of mine.
just forget it
disregard it
damn it dammit

I just want a place to hide.

haiz.

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"Come to Me, all you who labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest."
--Matthew 11:28

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