Strangely Beautiful, Merry and Bright

Today, I have had a quiet day. Feeling very fatigued - fatigue higher than pain. I played music as I dealt with some life admin. I am usually awake by 6.30am to 7.30am. I always try and sleep later but the pain always wakes me up and the lighter mornings too. I am never asleep before 1-2am and some nights I don’t sleep at all. I do everything on very little sleep and I would rather that than rely on others.

Still feeling a bit wheezy but nowhere near as bad. I really hope I don’t get Covid again.

A friend of mine who also has fibromyalgia has a bad throat infection just now and she was saying to me today that people just don’t understand how much longer it takes people with chronic health conditions to recover from Covid or any other additional health issues. 

It’s so true and very frustrating at times, especially when certain people seem to want to compete over their misery or recovery time.

It always makes me feel very baffled and irritated. I do everything myself and struggle every day with basic daily tasks that other people take for granted. 

I’ve learnt to filter out the drama but I must admit it is very difficult when people seem to constantly want to compete with each other, even over how long their Covid took to clear up.

I have a busy week ahead and am going to have to pace myself. Looking forward to getting my eyes tested, long overdue as I have had to constantly rearrange it due to my health.

I have a planner of my health appointments. I never thought I would see the day that would happen. 

Today’s Blip is of my kitchen wall - damp which spread through the wall from my bathroom. I’m arranging for it to be inspected next week. It’s crumbling a lot so I have been doing my best to keep the work surfaces wiped down.

Although it is unsightly and not good for my asthma, I think it looks strangely beautiful. The sticker is one from a couple of Christmases ago which wouldn’t budge after the festivities were over! I just left it in the end as I rather like it - merry and bright.

Night :) xx