Day one of ADHD Medication

A topsy turvey day with family matters, but also my first day on meds.


The plan is to start with a low dose and work up, so I thought I should log my thoughts and experiences.

I've also logged my personal development efforts for the day, to help feel some sense of accomplishment in the things that work, and move on from the things that will need more effort to make work out.

 
Medication Commentary: 
Dose: 5mg morning +5mg afternoon 


I was honestly expecting more. I see so many people saying day on is life changing, and I so wanted it to be. Frustratingly there was potential there, but just not enough. I suspect it's just a pointless dosage level, which is beyond frustrating. 
 
Spend the day in hospital and at a course. The edge was gone. So much of the 'noise' had softened. I mean it's all still there, but it somehow just doesn't "matter" as much (if that makes sense). However, nothing had softened enough to make a real difference.  
 
There were glimmers of moments, but I craved more. I so want this to work that I half suspect today was just placebo. 
 
Personal development:  
Had the first of eight sessions on a Compassionate Mind training course. It was 2 1/2hr's course and time went relatively easily. It was really encouraging in many ways. So much of what I feel regularly was named, and often that's half the battle.  

I thought meditation would be bollocks, but I found it relatively easy. It took me back to the days of acting and exercises of the mind. It was a cross between that and the calm moments on an areoplane where there is nothing to do but 'be' in the world. I love those moments.