Happiness all around me

Today as soon as I woke there was something very distinctly wrong with me to which I can't and still now instantly put my finger on.
I felt overwhelmed with unhappiness & upset & I couldn't stop crying for no reason.
Having to take 2 trips to the post office I suppose didn't help me either & my planned morning of activity drifted into an afternoon of inactivity.
I took this photo whilst I was sat outside watching the children play and Ferguson & Gracie chasing up & down with weapons.
I like that F is wearing mismatched shoes & Noodle looks longingly at them running away from her.

By late afternoon I eventually had gotten myself lay curled up on a blanket out on the grass in the garden when Alex came to see me. Out of some deegree of concern, he had purposely disobeyed my requests to keep his distance because I had said that I didn't want to be with people & wanted solitude.
Following this & a treat of chocolate ice cream, I half pulled myself together & commenced a Pink Champagne cake for Zoe's birthday BBQ tomorrow.
As so very frequently lately, Ferguson was "badly behaved" and Alex & I found ourselves amidst yet another bitchy row.
This climaxed in me dispensing the afore mentioned cake down onto the kitchen table with a less than gentle slam, subsequently & unfortunately destroying it.
This was not a good day to have a pop at me.
Another row slept on. These are getting all to tiringly frequent.