850 day of war

Hello, friends!

I have one less reason to worry because my father was not allowed to cross the border into Mariupol. Although he was prepared for the trip and we removed anything that might raise suspicion, there were some things he didn't delete. It was a pretty quick trip; he left for Poland, then took a bus to Belarus, where he was interrogated by the FSB at the border. He failed the interrogation because they found subscriptions to some National Guard battalions on his phone. He was not allowed to cross the border and quickly returned. They put a 10-year entry ban stamp on his passport, so I think he won't try to go back to Mariupol now. Even though he is upset that nothing worked out, I am glad it ended this way. To return home, you have to show loyalty to their regime, which is hard to do even when trying to lie. They also conduct polygraph tests to identify disloyal people and spies. How can you be loyal to those who send us rockets and bombs daily, who destroyed our home and lives, and because of whom we are forced to live in cities where we will always be strangers? So I am glad his journey ended quickly and he returned safely.

Now I am planning a two-day trip to the mountains. We have bought the tickets and are getting ready; in two weeks, we will be there. Just as we organized everything, Nastya and I saw a story covered by independent media about a person who came to the city we are going to for vacation, was taken to the military enlistment office, underwent a medical examination within an hour, and was immediately sent to a military unit.
And unfortunately, this is happening quite often now.
Nastya says maybe we should cancel the trip, but I don't want to deprive her of a vacation due to fear. In general, the mobilization methods are the most frightening, and the state's policy on this issue has completely failed. Everyone knows that lawlessness and violations of people's rights occur in the enlistment offices. You can simply go out in the morning and end the day serving in a military unit. I hope I get lucky this time too, and this will not be my last trip, but of course, I am worried about it.

I feel the world is helping me organize everything because I have received many orders for t-shirts and socks, and I am working hard on them every day. This is very good since my main job brings almost nothing, and dyeing t-shirts helps us survive a lot. Besides, I enjoy doing it. I believe everything will work out for us, and we will return home without unnecessary adventures.

Time goes by quickly, but every day seems so hard that there is no desire to get up in the morning. I feel some burnout and a lack of strength. A few days of rest will definitely be beneficial, and I will try my best to make everything work out as it should. Thank you all for your support and also for the help on buymeacoffee, it helps a lot. Thank you!