Chocolate Mint flowering

So...

I was supposed to work with M this weekend. As soon as I get in, she tells me that she's sick and leaving home. So i was alone until the dreaded S came. She's so difficult to work with. On top of all, she was loading her own stuff on me. It just takes a toll on me. I'm supposed to be the "good Heidi", she refuses to work with the most difficult one, who is also named Heidi. She can choose who she works with as she's doing gigs.

Anyway. So most of the day alone today too. Tomorrow I have no idea if I get help or not. Worst case is that I'll be there from 7 to 21 alone with no help at all. I hope that is not the case.

It's getting too much. It's really taking a lot of effort not to cry. And I don't even know why. I guess I'm just so tired of the total chaos in there all the time. We are on so thin ice and it feels that it's breaking underneath and there's nothing I can do. And I'm just sinking in with...

And that's not even the whole story. I just don't have the strength to write all down.