Monday

Nothing much planned today - No.1 was having coffee/lunch with a friend who picked her up around 12.00.  She is a good friend who has known No.1 since school and has been kind and attentive.  She is a person who has all the boxes ticked (great job, marriage, two children, detached house in TW, OH who earns mega bucks and had 6 months paid paternity leave......... I could go on) and I am trying hard not to make comparisons?!  OH went to see MIL in the care home and for some reason when he came home saying 'she was on great form' I felt really miffed and a bit disappointed?  I think I am turning into a horrible person, or maybe have always been one, or it's just my response to the horrible circumstances No.1 is facing?

No.2 arrived after lunch en route home from Eastbourne to collect the cat.  He stayed for a while but never seems to settle when he is here, always seems in a rush?  I made lasagne for dinner and No.2 and H took one each home with them (but never get much thanks so not sure why I bother?).  No.2 woke after a rest (but didn't sleep) and was full of energy so we had another walk while OH finished cutting the hedge and cleared up (vowing to get the tree boys to do it in future).  

No.1 and I had a deep meaningful conversation while walking, the sort you should never have with your 33 year old daughter.  Trying not to feel sad and hoping to do a mental re-set tomorrow.

Picture today is of Malcolm - he is a sweetie but I don't want another cat.