My Boy...

My mum took this, the expression as he is looking down her camera's long lense!

He had his 12 -week jabs on Wednesday, was absolutely fine yesterday, but today he screamed and wouldn't settle, and after I was lacking in patience with it all, guilt crept in (and hearing his pitiful 'I need comfort and I'm not getting it from you ' cry) and I broke down too. I hate being grumpy with him and it broke my heart to hear how upset he was. 

My mum made me a cup of tea, I cried about other things that have bothered me which always helps (!), fed the baby and we gave him some Calpol - a large amount that ended up all over his baby grow, despite our best efforts ;-) We concluded he probably didn't feel all that well, hence the crying. 

I took a break, mum went out, and then he fell asleep on me for a bit - he never does that in the daytime. I was supposed to meet my work friends at the pub to celebrate the end of term, but having deliberated, I decided he wasn't well enough to go out, so I put him to bed where he then slept from 2-5:30! 

A rough day, but a nice bath and some tlc made me feel a bit better. I think taking it one day at a time is the way to survive at the moment. Nevertheless I couldn't stop thinking about it al day, and felt tearful. 

I love him and I don't want to be irritable with him...