1123 day of war

Hello, friends!

This week has been incredibly busy for me. I started working on a batch of socks since the weather is getting warmer, and there's usually demand for them at this time. At the same time, I received some T-shirt orders that turned out to be quite complex, so I spent the entire week working.

There are so many things I’d like to do—like starting to ride my bike or planting flowers on the balcony—but I barely have enough time for everything, and I’ve completely lost my usual daily routine. Now, I’m trying to fit in as many tasks as possible each day.

While I’m always happy to receive orders, right now, I just want to finish them quickly and get back to my routine because, without it, life feels chaotic and unsettled.

Work has also distracted me from the news, which is a good thing because I just can’t handle it anymore. It seems like there are a lot of negotiations about a ceasefire, but in reality, nothing is changing. In fact, the shelling has only intensified over the past few days, though that’s no surprise anymore. I don’t believe that Russia is genuinely interested in any peace. They’ve become much more active along the entire front line, trying to seize as much territory as possible while we remain in a clearly weak and uncertain position.

All of this brings a sense of apathy. I think about my friends who have died in this senseless war. I often remember my hometown, which once seemed full of problems we were trying to solve. I remember how I used to attend environmental protests to push for the installation of filtration systems on metallurgical plants to reduce air pollution. Back then, it all felt important—it seemed like life was ahead of us, and we needed to make it better. But now, sitting a thousand kilometers away from home, I feel like I have to let go of it all because there’s no point in holding on to what has already been lost. And thinking about the future is terrifying because there doesn’t seem to be any real prospects.

So, even though I feel exhausted and drained from this week, I’m glad that things are working out in a way that keeps my schedule full. Having tasks to complete allows me to focus on the present rather than dwelling on difficulties.

As before, I feel like we just need to endure the hardest moments in the country. Maybe, with time, circumstances will change, and we’ll be able to reach real peace agreements. All we can do is hope. I’m sure that this war can’t last forever—every day brings us closer to its end. I try to hold on to that thought.

Thank you all for your support and kind words—I truly appreciate it. And a huge thank you to those who have helped through BuyMeACoffee. I’m really grateful to you!