1137 day of war

Hello, friends!

Lately, it's been getting harder and harder for me to understand what's happening in the world. It feels like everything is spiraling into an abyss, like the world has completely changed since the war began, and we simply can't keep up with these changes.
We’re still under almost daily shelling, and reading statements that peace is coming soon or that hostilities will stop is starting to feel like a joke. It’s impossible to believe everything that’s written when missiles are flying overhead and the buzzing of drones and the sound of air defense systems can be heard at night. Reality is increasingly diverging from the statements in the news, and it’s really demoralizing. I don’t know what to expect from the future, and this feeling of uncertainty is frightening.

Yesterday, a ballistic missile with cluster munitions was launched at Kryvyi Rih. It was aimed at a regular civilian of apartment buildings. Using cluster munitions in a city — it’s just incomprehensible. This type of missile explodes hundreds of meters above the ground and releases submunitions that scatter over a wide area, causing extensive damage. So far, it's known that 18 people were killed and 61 injured in this attack — half of the dead were children who were playing on a playground at the time.
I understand these are acts of intimidation and attempts to force surrender, but it’s an extraordinary level of hatred to do something like this. The Russians know they can do whatever they want and won’t be held accountable. And we live in fear because missiles can hit anywhere, regardless of whether there’s a military or energy facility nearby.
There’s no strength left to keep watching all this happen, and no hope that it will really end anytime soon. It seems like they take pleasure in what they’re doing.

Right now, we don’t have any orders coming in for our main work, so I try to distract myself from everything that’s going on by focusing more on dyeing. When you’re in a state of apathy like this, it’s hard to force yourself to do anything, but I’m trying to fight through it and stick to a routine — making sure every day is filled with some kind of task and scheduled out by the hour.

Also, this week, my mother led her first workshop on mandala crocheting at our support center "YaMariupol." I’m really happy that my parents have been able to find themselves in a new city and adapt to these new circumstances. In times like these, it’s important to keep yourself occupied, and crafting really does have a positive effect on your mental state.
I hope this difficult time will pass and that we will all come out of it stronger and more resilient. I know things are tough all over the world right now, but together we can get through anything. I truly believe that.

Thank you all for your support and thank you for the help on BuyMeACoffee. It really means a lot.