Lunch with the girls x

Had a bit of an upset last night after Eva had gone to bed and I'd written yesterday's blip. She woke around 10.15, I got 2 little burps up then put her back down, whereas usually I'd give her a top up feed. At first she was just whinging, but I thought, no, I'm sticking to my guns, you cannot possibly still be hungry. So I walked out of the bedroom and waited outside. After 1 minute I went back in, by now she was crying, I sssshhhhd her and put my hand on her chest, then walked back out, this time waiting outside for 2 minutes. Her cries got more and more, and I stood there hating every second, but I thought no, I have to break this habit. I doubled the time before, going back in, til I got to 8 minutes. By now she was very very upset. More upset than I've ever known her to be and I could take it no more. I thought what the hell am I doing?? So what if she wants some milk and cuddles? Give her some! What's the big deal? She'll be tiny for like 5 seconds, cherish every moment. I scooped her up into my arms, held her close and tried to soothe away her sobs. I felt terrible. I gave her a feed, and within no time she was fast asleep back in her bed. She woke up once more at 3 am then slept til 8 am. Controlled crying is definitely not for me. I felt like such a monster and then struggled to get to sleep anyway as it was playing on my mind so much of what I'd done. I was ok by this morning thankfully, and got some great support and lovely messages from my friends on Facebook about it. But I won't be trying that again in a hurry. No way.

On a brighter note.......

When I was getting her washed and dressed this morning, the sun was shining through her bedroom window and creating shadows on the wall by the side of where she was lying on her changing table. She kept trying to catch the shadows, it was so lovely to watch her concentration. I made a few shadows myself, but the best I could come up with was a duck with its beak and a rabbit with its ears hehe.

We went to the cricket club for lunch this afternoon and met Lisa with James and Harry, Louise and Rhys, and Lou Taylor. It was great to all catch up. Eva and Rhys both sat in highchairs, they're growing up so fast. I took Eva a few toys to play with and wrapped up some carrot and tomato baby rice cakes and a baby banana biscuit, which she devoured (today's pic).

We got back and Eva had some floor time on her play mat. She was a happy little bee, rolling around, playing with her toys, and seeing her big brother. Grandad arrived then, so he watched her while I got dinner on. Then I brought her into the back room for her dinner while ours cooked. I did her a double portion to see what she'd eat, omg she ate the lot!!! Then while we ate our dinner, she polished off some cooked carrot, and practically a whole plum, both of which she fed herself.

Mike gave her her bath tonight, then she had her milk and snuggles with me and was in bed asleep by just gone 8. She woke briefly not long after, but I got her straight up for cuddles and top up feed, and she was back asleep in her bed asleep within 15 minutes. It's 11.30 pm as I write this, and she hasn't stirred again since (yet).

Sleep well my baby girl, but if you wake, mommy will be waiting for cuddles :-) xxxxx