Digging deep

Look at Audrey's little face. It has been like this all day. Accompanied by crying and a low whine. It has been tough.

I tried to soldier on, having breakfast with friends (see Sam and Audrey pic) and then heading up to Mum's for tea as Angus was working all day. But in retrospect, that was probably definitely a bad idea. She was so tired, clearly unwell.

Then I came down with it too (again). By 6pm, we were both a total mess. My throat was killing, I had the chills, Audrey was sobbing and we were 16 miles from home in the most atrocious driving conditions.

Had to dig deep to get us both home. Then she lost her dummy as we hit the motorway. She screamed for 30mins non stop and there was nowhere to pull over. There was torrential rain and hail, it was so hard to concentrate. She just kept screaming and it broke my heart as I couldn't help her. Tried to call Angus for some moral support but he was entrenched in work so I got really angry when he didn't call back (still hasn't). Left an angry voicemail.

Just want today to end. Am off to bed.