My new nursery x

Had a very restless night with Eva last night, the most disturbed in as long as I can remember. I think from 3.15 am, the pair of us must have totted up maybe 90 minutes sleep? I woke to my alarm at 8.15, and typical, Eva was fast asleep. One of the times I put her back down and she went straight to sleep, I was watching her on the camera to make sure she was definitely asleep before I went back to sleep myself, and I actually saw her wake herself up from coughing, poor baby :-( I'm so tired as I'm typing this, early night for Mommy tonight...

It was mixed emotions for me this morning, as Eva was seeing her new nursery for the first time today. I had forms to fill in today while she sat and played, with me in sight of her. Next week she'll have an hour there on her own, the week after she'll have 2 hours, then 4 hours the week after, then she starts 3 full days a week on Monday 6th January, when I return back to work :-( I am so massively relieved work have agreed for me to go back part time, I seriously may have considered my options had they said no. I think I can just about cope with the thought of 3 days a week, in fact, I'm rather looking forward to it, whereas going back full time I would have felt like I'd be completely missing out on seeing my baby grow and spending that quality, irreplaceable time with her.

As I carried her in today, I felt my stomach doing somersaults and I was shaking inside, I really thought I was going to cry, how silly. On the outside I was all smiles but I did feel quite overwhelmed secretly. It's crazy because I absolutely love the nursery she is going to, in fact I said to them today I wish I could come with her every day and see myself just how much fun she's going to have. The lady reminded me that would be rather an expensive thing to do if I was to come too lol.

They made such a fuss of Eva and she was all smiles for everybody. Some of the babies were sat in highchairs having a snack when we arrived, and they asked if Eva would like some raisins, so I sat her in one of the highchairs and she was well away. She then sat and played with an activity cube and a box full of different animals, and sat on the floor just a bit away from where I was sitting filling out the forms. She loved playing with the plastic monkey (she seems to like monkeys) and a cow glove puppet. One of the ladies then sat with some of the children, and pulled different animals out of the box and sang a different song for each animal, such as Baa Baa Black Sheep for the sheep. They then took Eva off to play with the musical instruments, and handed her a maracas, she looked over at me and I said "do shake shake, Eva" and right on cue, she was shaking that little maracas so enthusiastically with a huge happy grin on her face. It went a bit downhill when one of the staff blew Eva's snotty nose, she started off crying, and by this time, I wasn't in sight, so she started to get more and more upset. I ended up completing the mammoth set of forms with Eva snuggled on my lap, she was happy then.

Poor baby was so so tired. We got back home and within 10 minutes, she'd had a tiny bit of milk and was fast asleep in her bed.

She didn't want her breakfast this morning, so when she woke, she wolfed down some toast, some raisins and some milk, and had a lovely play with her toys. She loved it when I read her some of her new In The Night Garden books, she loves being read to.

Eva was so shattered this evening. Mike bathed her and got her ready for bed, and when I was giving her her milk, she lasted maybe 10 minutes before she was snoring so loud, so I carried her into her bed and tucked her in. I hope she has a better night tonight. Xxx