Day 28: brain waves

left class early yesterday. Told them all I had a migraine. I didn't. I just felt exhausted fraudulent and faint. 2 hours sleep and still the damn essay not done. I wandered back thinking I might cry in public, how easy that would be. It was raining. No one would notice.

Today met with someone I shouldn't and took a walk I shouldn't have taken. The park. Air. Time to say what I should say to him. Which I did. And then we walked and talked and silently noticed things as you do at the beginning or the end of something. Taking photographs, snaps of awareness, everything totemic, a sign, in a wee bubble of conversation, ignoring the rain.

I thought it funny to look at this tree and realise it is probably being processed by neural pathways that look just like it. Does your brain recognise itself like that? What does it see when it sees these fractal shapes? Does it realise it's looking in a mirror?

We saw seven magpies.

We pass a church with blazing stain glass that we hadn't noticed on the way out, but when it got dark and the lights came on, we passed a modern burning bush with ribbons of blue fire spread out in all directions.

And then I got home and noticed that my workload hadn't evaporated, or time rewound, both only mounted higher. But at least I feel human enough to start to tackle it in the time I have.

I saw seven magpies. Ssssshhhhhh. Don't tell.

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