"the chance won't come again....(??)"

I've blipped this quote before, approximately a year ago when I had a bit of a bumpy patch. And today was another bump....

...I made the phone call. The most difficult phone call I've ever had to make because regardless of the answer I gave, I knew I wasn't going to be 100% behind either one.

But, there's nothing I can do now. The decision has been made and I chose to stay - for now. For better or for worse. I've disappointed those who matter most to me, confused them and possibly lost all faith that they had in me to make the right decisions for my life/career in the future.

I can only hope that I made this decision for a reason, that it wasn't my opportunity to take and that I can remember to be proud of how far I have come and keep faith in how far I can still go.

Life will be different now, even though in some ways it will remain the same. Yes, I will have regrets and when they hit they will hit hard. But I have to accept that this is the situation I'm left with and for now I just have to make the most of it.

Sometimes our mistakes in life make us stronger people because we learn so much from them.

# The Times They Are a Changing - Bon Dylan #