The Message

Among these cards is one from one of my nieces. I started reading about how wonderful I am. How fun and kind etc. and how much I am cared about. My first dumb reaction was to think, "No, I am not that person. I don't deserve this!" I actually threw it away from me! Then, after feeling rather silly, I picked it up and read it again. That is when I realized that even if I don't think I deserve this - she does think I do. I have many people who love and/or like me. Why do I always feel so unworthy? I don't know. I have great kids, grandkids, nieces, nephews, sisters, sisters-in-law, brothers-in-law and a husband of fifty years. I have friends and customers who seem to like to deal with me - in fact, some of them just come in to visit! When I finished reading her card I felt very special and, at 70, I finally realized that maybe I am not so bad. I try never to judge other people but I am my own worst critic. I judge myself and come up short many times. But, to her, I am that person she talked about. The person I always want to be but don't think I ever achieve it. She made me realize that I do achieve it sometimes - maybe even many times and I am going to stop being so hard on myself! I guess that is called "Resting on my laurels" A good thing to do now and then :-)