Day 118 - quick shot from the garden

Not such a great morning, struggling to leave my bed.

I did eventually do some of my book. Beginning to identify problems contributing to my depression. Anxious. But at the same time got quite into it and sort of didn't want to stop.

Had been glad I was going to get out to go to Alice's. Ran some of the way. Hard work. Chatted to Mum on way but was fairly irritable.

Was OKish with Alice. Once I had left to go to church, I felt scared and alone.

Church was not too bad. Very good sermon - we all have guilt and no human can take it away from us, but if we take our guilt to the cross, Jesus will take it from us! Amazing news! Such freedom! I used to be ruled by guilt (like twenty million times more than I am now) so I was reminded how horrific that had been and how glad I am to now have been saved!

The socialising after church was slightly difficult.

I wanted to avoid being alone once home so asked Rhoda to play some games with me. They were quite good. I wasn't in the mood for any chat though.

Bit scared about some things this week.

Now in bed, feeling exhausted, needing yet more sugar maybe (or something) and feeling scared.

Hebrews 13:5 "God has said, 'I will never leave you; I will never forsake you.'"