I wish I had faith

But at every turn there seems another reason not to have any.

I rang to Doctors again today.
Finally got through.
Asked what was up with me.
Explained that my pre existing condition was worsening and new symptoms including pain in my chest and back, causing me to have some difficulty catching my breath when I had a bout of acute pain.

Initially told the earliest I could be seen was 9th June. No earlier appointments.

Some wrangling led to the discovery that in fact there was an appointment at 8.40 on Monday morning.

Why is it necessary to make people like me, who are struggling every day, to beg and plead for an appointment when there are appointments available.

So why would I have faith?