More of Jersey

Another day featuring lots of tiredness and some sadness. I think I am dreading the long journey home tomorrow and then back to reality.

I have done some fun stuff - a walk to the lighthouse above, fun in the pool with Henry and a jolly family meal this evening. I have also done a lot of sleeping!

I guess a big issue today has been my relationship with my sister. I feel like she just doesn't want to talk to me, even when I try hard. I think hearing the girls at Sparkford talking about how they would turn to their (usually elder) sister made me feel more of a failure as a sister.

I suppose I talked about this a bit with Lucy (don't think about her too much Laura or you will start missing her lots again). We thought that my unstableness as a teenager could have prompted an angry response in Alice. Some might be sad in such a situation, others cross. I think that is where it all went wrong. We had been getting on quite well before that (at least for a bit!). So what can I do now? I guess it will just take time and patience. And prayer.

Having said all that, we got on well this evening. Especially after I had said I wanted a tiramisu actually. There may be something in that - the eating disorder barrier had been dropped, perhaps?