Stuck in reverse

This is the view from the alleyway behind my mothers house there is something stunning about its simplicity,as I said yesterday this small kent town is prone to very dramatic landscapes.

I blame them for my thinking too much, walking past the seafront at sunset its hard not think about life theres something so compelling about it all here,something attaches it to my inner being.Maybe its the way the light shines or the colours or something deeper I dont know.

Today has been an odd day,one where every tiny thing has annoyed me everything except this view....today had no rays of light no moments when my heart stopped hurting which is upsetting mainly becuase I now have to work out if there is ever a way my ray of light could be permenant somehow I doubt it can be, I fear it's light is owned by another already and I am too late to change that.

Everybody talks about wanting to change things and help and fix, but ultimately all you can do is fix yourself. And that's a lot. Because if you can fix yourself, it has a ripple effect.-Rob Reiner