Rifts

One of those days today. I still have my tummy bug which makes me feel a bit low. I think it's mainly been worry. That somehow this bug may affect the baby. I have been reassured that it wont but it still doesn't stop me worrying. We had to ask to change my midwife today, as we just weren't hitting it off,then I felt bad about that too. And I think to top things off my mum told me my sister was going to visit my other sister in Scotland this weekend and it was all I needed to send me to tears. I don't mind that shes going It just makes me sad that I don't have the same level of relationship to ever be offered an invite. I get so sad about our non existent relationship it drains me. Nearly 5 months pregnant and very little word.
Just a day I spose where little things felt bigger. And worries seemed to be getting the better of me.
Hopefully tomorrow I'll wake and feel better and stop worrying about family rifts so much. I have a little life inside me,and thats all I ever wanted for so long.
This is what I need to remember to concentrate on.