'blur in my life'

bea ba


friend's birthday.
party down the hill.
went to the bars.
[first time in awhile.]
went through the motions.
[flash a smile/'no, sorry, I don't give my number out'/pretty laugh/accept a drink]
walked home alone.
[didn't have to, but wanted to.]
had three or four people I wanted to call on my trek back.
[didn't/couldn't.]
roommates awake when I returned.
watched trash tv wrapped up in my blanket.
thought.
wrote.
slept.