Bus shelter, The Meadows.

Doctors again today and am fed up! General moan coming up so feel free to skip it, it's just for me really - like therapy!

Fell over the other day which I think was just down to general clumsiness and poor balance and it probably isn't related - but on Sunday night I tried to stand up and couldn't move my legs, it was really frightening. They had been very painful all day, but no more than normal and I hadn't been doing any more than I normally do. They had not gone to sleep or anything either, I just couldn't physically stand up. Most odd. Eventually I managed to get up and stagger through to the kitchen for a hot water bottle and after a few hours of sitting with that on my legs I could move properly again. Today they are fine, just usual aches and pains. I can only assume that its a part of the M.E. and the Doc didn't have any advice, just made some notes and moved onto another subject so I'm none the wiser. Thing is I've been feeling particularly rubbish for ages - there tends to be ups and downs with M.E. and unfortunately I must be in a more down period. The cold weather of course isn't helping the pain much either. So am hoping that this isn't heralding the start of getting even worse. I'm mostly very positive, I'm sure that I will get well again. I've lived with this for several years this time (this is the second time around) and I'm quite good at managing it but its hard not to be really fed up with the whole thing sometimes.

Ok moan over, I haven't felt like writing much recently because of this stuff so just had to get it out!