The Aquarium
I started painting in September 2014. Something unusual began happening when I picked up a brush. Now I find myself scared to continue. I am frightened. I find myself crying almost all the time. How I see the world frightens me. Everything that I once knew. Everything that I once saw has been replaced by something else. Something that I cannot explain. I feel utterly alone. I feel trapped. I feel like most days that I cannot go on. I cannot keep going. I want out. I want out of this world. But I don't know where to go. I don't know who to trust. I don't know how I can keep this up. I ask God every night to help me. I feel my body changing. I can't help but think that God made a horrible mistake when he created me. People say that I am beautiful, but I see myself as something far from that. I see myself as a mistake. But yet I am here. How can I do some good on this earth while I am here?
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- Apple iPhone 5s
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